Why is it when you want things in your life to get better they usually dont, but on the opposite happens and they get worst. They get worst and worst till it seems you have almost nothing left. Till it seems nothing can get better. Where everything in their life seems to fall apart. And you start to wonder Why? I had everything, and just like that it was all taken away from me. For days I wondered whats the point. In the morning its all going to be the same. But then something happened. I dont exactly know what but something did happen. For no apparent reason I started feeling better. Nothing had changed, yet it seems as if I were looking better side of everything. And little by little my life that had nothing started to rebuild itself. I got a job. Met a couple new people. Even got a girlfriend, and everything is starting to look like it is going over the better. It is until now that I realize that anytime you fall you get right back up. You dont lie on the floor hoping by some miracle that you will be lifted back up. No. You need to get yourself back up. And in a way, the same is true about your life. Bad things happen to everyone, even the best people in life, but it shouldnt let us stay down. Life is not just going hand you things just because. You need to work to get the things you want. To get the things need. If you just sit and wait. . . nothing will every happen. And nothing will ever get better.

My Mood

Right now I'm not really feeling that well. Last semster I moved here from Arizona where i left every single one of my friends behind. I moved here because of my Dad who got a new job over here in Georgia, and as of right now I am not liking it too much. It has gotten alot better but im still not as happy i would like to be. I have spent over a hundred and eighty days here, and so far have made a total of about 2 or 3 friends which is really sad, haha. I dont understand what why but I notice myself isolating myself from everyone. The only real friend i have here is my girlfriend, and surprisingly none of her like me. But lately me and her have been getting into a bit of arguements that hasnt left me that well. Yet, I'm actually gald im doing this blog thing. Usually i dont talk about my problems, mainly cause i consider them to be MY PROBLEMS, and no one else. And in a way this helps me relax and talk about some of them. I think the biggest problem i have right now is whether or not i want to move back to Arizona. If i do move back i would probably need an apartment, and at least a cell phone, yet if i do move back my parents arent going to pay for any of that. So i would need a job. Yet i truely and honestly want to be a full time college student. To me school is important and i want to finish college and do something with my life. But the biggest problem is if i do move back, yes i will be happier, but my parents will get a divorce. And i dont know if i can deal with that, knowing my parents divorced because of me. And not only that but my little brother should not have to go through anything like that either. I dont know what to do exactly. . . but i think i have a pretty clear desicion on what i am probably going to do. I just hope i am doing the right thing. . . .

First Days School

So I have finally been to all my classes and I'm going to have to say this might be the hardest year of school for me. Not only that but it will also me one of the most important because it will be a test to see how well or how bad im going to do in college. To start off, I have never been good in English and honestly never liked it much either, but for the most part it seems that it will be a some what hard class. If i push myself and try everyday I'm hoping to maybe pull off a B in the class. Next is my American History class, which to my surprise actually seems like an ok class and I'm gald about that. I have always done poorly in History, mainly cause i could never remember dates and specific detail, but this time I sure i can do good. The next class i decided to take was Music Apperciation. I took the class mainly cause i thought it would be an easy A, but like everything it isn't. A ten page paper is due on what my favorite genre of music is, and there is no way I can do that. Maybe 5 pages or 6, but ten is way to much. Afterwards is my math class. Now i have always been good at math, but I'm terrified now. My very first day I got competely lost, but that was not the worst part. What made it all worst was that i seemed to be the only one lost which bummed me out even more. If this contiunes I would be theried to get a C in the class. Lastly i have Psychology, and it is the only class i think that is going to be fun and easy, yet i have been wrong before. I have always done well in high school, and I even graduated early but college is nothing alike. I used to never study for test or quizes or even finals, and now I am going to have to work hard to do just as well. It's a huge change for me, and it is one I'm wondering if I will be able to do it or not. My biggest consern is not the first couple of weeks or even the first month, but it's the middle of the semseter and the end of the semseter where i usually tend to slack off and this time I can't. I guess im just going to have to see what happens